It all ends.

I've noticed that my blog titles seem to be somewhat depressing...odd as I'm not all that of a depressing person...oh well! Sorry. Well, tomorrow marks the beginning of the end, the last first day of school; something I've been dreading for years. I am very stoked (did I actually use the word 'stoked?') about everything that this year has to offer, but I'm also apprehensive about all of the work it entails. FCCLA I'm sure will be keeping me on my toes as usual, along with NHS, VizArts2, AP Lit, and College Classes all on top of my required classes. I also have to find the time to get in 12 more hours of community service before May. I've been kind of depressed lately because I know how I've got it made here in high school and don't really want to enter the "real world." I enjoy sitting here with no worries! :) I've recently gotten back into the Harry Potter series. I used to be the biggest fan when I was little, and even went as Harry for Halloween one year! I happened to clean my room a couple of weeks ago and actually found all of my old HP stuff, action figures, movies, books, etc. it was very exciting. I also read all 7 books in the past few weeks and I feel like I'm left hanging and am craving more...too bad there isn't any more! The college search has been driving me crazy, applying to colleges is driving me nuts and the fact that I haven't had a chance to go on one single stinking college visit is stressing me out. I feel like at the current moment, I am one big ball of stress. I will admit, I work best under stress, but I would much rather be going with the flow right now! I am so confused about my school schedule, as right now, the way I'm looking at it I have 3 minutes between a high school class, and my college class to drive across town, plus no lunch period in there at all as college is during my lunch. I also have FCCLA sponsorships to work on and Yearbook sponsorships. It's crazy stressful to try to make it to all of those businesses that we have to for Yearbook as they gave us a list of 23 different businesses! I didn't even know there were that many in town! Ha! Hopefully I can work on finding some less depressing titles. Adios!

The beginning of the end.

For me, high school has been a fantastic ride. I've actually been dreading the start of my Senior year because I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that I'm graduating in 9 months. May 13, 2012, you can definitely come fast enough! At this point, I'm starting to get excited for the fact that this is my final year, and it will be full of lasts. I'm kind of depressed to an extent that this is actually my last summer without worries, and is my last summer as a kid! Everything I do right now seems so final, shopping for school supplies, registering for the ACT, and searching for that perfect college. It's all so much at once, and is stressing me to the max. I honestly have no idea where I want to go to college and I just don't have the time right now to be visiting a school. I really wish my parents would be able to take the time and just go on a road trip and visit my four potential schools, it would make life SO much easier! Colleges for me are so hard to find, mostly because of my major I am looking into. I have made the decision that I am going to become a Family and Consumer Sciences teacher, but it's crazy hard to be finding colleges with that degree. I've also decided that I kind of want to stay in Iowa and not go too far away so that I can still come home on breaks and such. I had been looking at colleges on the east coast, but I have put all of that away. I don't want to go too far from my comfort zone! 

On my major choice, how hard is it for a school to offer an FCS program?! I can only find two colleges in the entire state of Iowa with that program! How ridiculous?! I just spent three days surrounded by FCS teachers and the experience definitely pushed me towards this decision. I had a fantastic time at the IFCSEP conference and I can't wait to attend it at some point as a teacher! I'm now stressed to the max because every school I'm looking at is costing the upwards of 20,000 plus dollars which my mom is totally against, but it's MY bill I will be racking up, not all hers! 

I've had kind of a crappy day today, which is kind of the reason behind this rant. I just needed something to vent to and I decided that anyone who happens to stumble over this completely ridiculous blog can read and enjoy my craziness. My day got crappy when my mom actually got a call saying that the people we babysit for will be switching to someone else for their child care needs. This is a MAJOR problem because I use my small income from babysitting to pay for my FCCLA expenditures. This means that I will be a completely broke High School Student driving all over the place with absolutely no money for gas this year. Oh goodness. This has been stressing me out today. 

Surprisingly, I am excited for my senior year. I'm ready to get this show on the road! I'm so excited for everything that is yet to come this year. FCCLA has a TON of things coming my way and I'm excited for the ride. I feel like I have started to grow into my role as First Vice and I think that is a hugely important thing! 

Well, until we meet again blog! :)

The Life of a Nomad

I feel as though I'm always running and never slowing down. I have literally been traveling it seems every other week since March. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE to travel but a few days of doing nothing would be much appreciated! When I'm not on the road, I'm babysitting and even on my supposed days off, somehow I end up with the kids. Not cool. I'm pumped for a relaxing weekend in St. Louis starting bright and early tomorrow! I think it will be nice to go back and not have a schedule! Every trip I go on seems to be so thought out which is my life. I love to know what I'm doing and when, but this break shall be exactly what I need! 2 more weeks from today and I will be enjoying California! I'm so excited! I have a feeling I will be traveling all the time for the next year...oh well, I guess I should get used to it!

What does it feel like to fail? I guess I'll learn!

So, in 15 days I will be enjoying myself in the California sun...I can feel it now, but I have way too much to do between now and then and it's not even funny. I feel like I'm going to fail at my FCCLA officerness between now and then. We do these things called STAR buddies and I'm in charge of figuring out what we give and such, but I have absolutely no idea what to do. We have so many great ideas, just figuring out how they are going to work makes me feel like i'm failing...I also accepted this job thing to sell advertising on a bag and it has to be done by the time I go to California and I honestly don't see myself finding the time. PLUS I have to do sponsorships for FCCLA. I am meeting with people next week to talk about sponsoring us for the next year, and it's kind of nerve racking. Not what I need right now. I can't wait for my weekend in St. Louis this weekend, it is much needed. I'm going to see the Marine's Silent Drill Platoon on Saturday and Sunday and it's time for some family time. I'm really hoping my cousin who we are going to see perform can actually do dinner with us or hang out after they perform, he lives in Washington DC so he's not around all that much and may very well be one of my favorite cousins. On top of everything I realized that my senior trip to Washington DC is not going to work with my FCCLA schedule. G.R.E.A.T. I guess I will be flying myself to DC at a different time, as I have counted down the days to my senior trip for the last four years because of how badly I want to go to the East Coast. Anywho, I am very excited to go to Anaheim in a couple of weeks, at least that is an exciting  thing.

Coming into the final year...

I hear people say ALL the time that they are ready to graduate and move on from high school onto bigger and better things, this isn't completely true with me. I actually do enjoy high school believe it or not! I've got it made right now, no worries, easy classes and I don't have to pay for anything! Sounds great right? I don't know why anyone would want to leave it! I can't believe I am going into my SENIOR year of high school. (Class of 2012 baby!) I am so not ready to graduate! There are so many things I want to do before I graduate, I don't think I will even come close to having enough time! The hardest thing for me about being a senior is the fact that I can't see any of my friends or myself being "old" enough to be seniors, it just doesn't seem like it is time. I guess the saying 'time flies when you're having fun' is very true. The last three years have been the best three years of my life so far. I am excited for all of the perks of being a senior, front row senior parking, first choice of EVERYTHING, and being "on top" of the school. I just don't want to graduate! How hard could it be, I could decide to fail a few classes and just not have the credits and be a "super senior" if I really wanted. I'm really excited to graduate and such, but as May 13, 2012 grows closer ( I know, it's a year away) I start to think and I really like life as it is. I have a jam packed summer, and I hope I can enjoy it being the last summer I have without worries and can enjoy it at home with my family. It seems like I was just elected as an FCCLA state officer, but it has seriously been two and a half months. I can't wait for all of the things that come with this, especially with my senior year, but I want my year to take its time and give me enough time to enjoy everything instead of a huge stressfest. I guess the point of this blog was that I'm just not ready for the next year. I plan to embrace it and enjoy it, but I am so not ready for it to be over quite yet. I honestly have some awesome teachers at my school and I look forward to going EVERY single day although there are days I just don't want to go, when I get there I'm usually glad that I did.

Turning 17...

Turning 17 wasn't that big of a deal. I can get my restriction taken off of my license, yippee! My birthday is the same as my mom's so we always celebrate it together. This year our birthday coincided with my junior prom, so it was quite the busy day, but of course we found time to celebrate! I took prom pictures at a friend's house, then I went home and took my dress off and had a birthday party with my family, which was fun of course! I love spending time with my family and am glad that I didn't go to eat with my friends and got to celebrate my birthday, even if we only ordered pizza ;) My main gift was money which is always needed for a busy high school student like me! The prom theme was Electric Avenue, which was mostly interpreted as a neon, splatter painted, street, dance club. The DJ played some really odd music and as I didn't look for a date, I was alas left to the edge of the dance as I was not interested in the "grind"  circle. After prom was where the fun came in! From one to five this morning we had a blow up obstacle course and tons of food, movies, giant tricycles, and sumo wrestling. I sat with my friends until the entertainment showed up. We had a hypnotist and he was pretty awesome! I was very impressed, and some people I believe were faking some of their things and weren't really hypnotized, but the ones that you could tell really were, definitely were interesting to watch! We then had breakfast and went home. I was exhausted when I got home, so I crashed into my bed and slept until noon! I don't think I have ever slept that late, or stayed up until 5 o'clock in the morning before! I had quite the birthday and I can't wait until next year!

Wow, It's been awhile...

It sure has been awhile since I decided to post! In a way I forgot about my blog...sorry dear blog! What got me back on was noticing that a good friend of mine had a blog and I read through and thought, "I have one of those! Why don't I post anything good?" I then decided that I would write a new post! So, I was last on in October, so boy do I have things to write about! Christmas was wonderful as always, I do enjoy spending time with my family. Plus I got a Coach bag and a 4th generation iPod touch! After Christmas I believe I went to Branson over break. I then was in charge of planning my District STAR (Students Taking Action with Recognition) event competition. That kept me busy all through January and I swear I didn't get ANY Spanish done because I used my class time to work on STAR events... Woops :) Then February came and left with no significant events. Then March came and was a whirlwind. I started the month out studying for my FCCLA State Officer Candidate test, but began slacking off as I always do. Then the fun began. On March 12, I left cold, dreary Iowa and was 26 hours away from the Beach. I was on my way to Florida for my High School Band trip! 7 days and 6 nights with my friends! Walt Disney World was AMAZING! I had such a great time! I then came back and had 8 days to recover before my next big adventure, running for Iowa FCCLA State Office. If you don't know FCCLA stands for the Family, Career and Community Leaders of America. We are the only student-lead CTSO (Career and Technical Student Organization) with the family as its central focus. For me, this organization is especially important. Without it, I would not be at all who I am today. We left for the State Leadership Conference and I was more nervous than I think I ever have been. We spent Sunday shopping, which is one of my favorite pastimes. A special thing about this conference is the fact that my mom tagged along, and so did my little brother to compete in STAR events. On Monday, I watched my brother present his project, and began the election process with a test on FCCLA knowledge. The test, wasn't very hard, but I knew I missed some questions. The writing portion was easy and simple. Then came the speech. That night we had regional speeches where we delivered our 2 minute or less speech to our region's delegates. I didn't get the office. Then on Tuesday after being slightly devastated, I gave my speech to the entire Iowa delegation. I was elected. Later that day as a State Executive Council (elect) we elected our offices within ourselves. I am proud to say that I am now the Iowa FCCLA First Vice President! :) A few weeks have passed, but I am in constant contact with the rest of the state officers. Last weekend, I went shopping for a prom dress, as prom is this weekend, on my 17th birthday. As of now, I do not have any party plans, but that can always change! I hope to keep updating this as my year as an officer goes by (hopefully not too fast!)